I Stand Alone

Writers: Chelle
Date Posted: 19th December 2013

Characters: Rhosyn
Description: Rhosyn considers her pregnancy.
Location: River Bluff Weyr
Date: month 4, day 16 of Turn 7
Notes: Mentioned: Briata, Reeva, Ciara, K'sedel, N'vanik

Standing in front of the looking glass, she was turning slowly from side to side. It was undeniable. She
was pregnant and everyone knew. They could see it as easily as she could. Rhosyn could no longer wear
her own clothes. Instead, she was using the ones Briata had sent. She was still able to fly, though, and was
as active as ever. "Allright so maybe I'm not that ugly, but I am fat." Being a smaller woman, the extra weight
was also more noticeable on her.

"I can feel you in there little bit." It was happening more often now-the kicking and the moving. She had to be
careful with the way she slept. "Wish your father could feel it too. Shells, I wish I knew who your father was. Well,
either way you'll be the child of Weyrleaders right? That should count for something. You won't have to worry aboutbeing sent away like I was." She was quiet then, her arm covering the roundness of her belly.

"I wonder what you are- a little boy? Or a girl? You're strong, I can feel that." Names flitted through her mind again.**Rhivan or Sedolin, Kosyni or Vanyska** Smiling to herself, she turned again.

Walking away from the mirror, she thought about all the things she needed to do. And then she thought about how long it would be until she wasn't pregnant anymore. And what that could mean. There would be a living, breathing human that was part her. Or it could kill her coming out or die itself. Panic seized her. Her breathing was more rapid.

Moving over to the chair, she sat down in a hurry. **Calm down. It's okay. There's time yet** Pushing her hands down on her legs, Rhosyn closed her eyes and thought about her dragon. She felt Orlaith's even breathing and warmth, along with her strength. She was risking her queen for this baby. She wanted the baby for N'vanik. It had to be his. If it wasn't...

Her thoughts went to K'sedel. This could be his baby and yet, he hadn't been asking her about how she felt or what she was going to name it, or anything. On the one hand, Rhosyn was sort of glad that he wasn't interfering. On the other, she wondered if he even cared that he could have another child. Of course it would be different if it were Ciara who was pregnant. Frowning, she fingered her clothing. "I've been so alone. Reeva is great
but...it's not the same."

Her hands slid down to her sides as she considered everything. Since admitting that she was pregnant, she alternated between so many different feelings. Fear was one of them. Sometimes Rhosyn woke up in the middle of the night thinking about it. Loneliness was another. No one really knew what she felt like. And no one was really there for her all the time.

**I understand that N'vanik can't be. Or even K'sedel. He already has a family.** She let out a sigh that brought her chest down as she slouched. Other times, she felt a secret sense of curiosity. **What will it look like? What will it be like?**

Standing up she crossed the room to where the water carafe sat on the table. She took a long drink and then set down the glass. "What will you think of me? Will you want me for your mother?" In that moment, she understood. Even if she didn't raise this child, she would still be its mother. She was
forever changed. Twiddling with the string on the tunic, Rhosyn brought her eyes back to the looking glass. She had never thought she would be here, standing like this, obviously carrying a child inside her. **I wonder what mother would say**

}:The eggs grow inside and then they come out. Then you will be done. It's hard laying sometimes but not so much really:{ Orlaith offered helpfully.

**It's not an egg lovely. It has hair and eyes and feet** Rhosyn chuckled. She appreciated the cheering up though. "Shells I'm the rider of the best dragon on Pern. I lead a Weyr and I fly Threadfall without backing down. If I can do all I do, I can have? a baby. It can't be that hard." She took a deep breath and opened her eyes. **I can do this. We're gonna be okay.**

Sighing, she decided it was time to go get her supper. The baby was hungry and so was she.

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